Died with a secret within me. 7:38 PM
Her Last Words.
`todae after school go find wen.
`hahahahahahas~
`finally bought for him!~
`XD XD
`hope he will like it... XD
`haha.
`very excited with his reaction lols!
`but hes still angry/sad i think... =(
`sorry... =(
`lols.
`tml modular day arh...
`ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
`stoopid lah.
`hais. sure go there sian de...
`computer games, bingo/sudoku, straw origami, den hmmm..... orh.
`jewelry making.. all the lame lame de activities lo.
`might as well dont come...
`hais. but enjoy the moments with kaiyun is good too. =)))
`if not i will miss her to death de........ =(((
Died with a secret within me. 5:22 PM
Her Last Words.
Monday, October 22, 2007
`dun feel like going sch tml.
`all the activities on modular day really sucks.
`hmmmmmmmmmmm.
`waste time go there for wat????????
`now wanna go slp.
`ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......
`nothing to wirte todae. haahah.
`i want food! =(
Died with a secret within me. 2:52 PM
Her Last Words.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
`i went to the wedding dinner just now!!!~
`he was soooooooooooooo cute todae...
`awww~~~~
`kant get my eyes off him! XD
`i saw him and then... WAH... it was him!! spike his hair oso!
`with the jacket....
`AWWWW~~~ i din recognized him.
`he rocks!!!
`wow. i was damn shocked i got it lahs...
`but soooooooooo many ppl was sooo bu shuang that i got
the bouquet.
`especially him, _ _ _ _ _ .
`he said that it was suppose to be someone get de.
`but, i got it lah.
`u think i want de ah?
`i giv her lah.
`wats the big deal if you LOVe her?
`its like fuck lah.
`send me the video lah. i wana see.
`yayayaya she get de she get de.
`fucker lah. i dun want such cheap bouquet le.
`actualli wanna throw away, since its not mine, ITS HER AWAY.
`i dun want other ppl's things.
`the sucked yea.
`but becos its their couple's blessing and its my first life, 1st bouquet.
`haha. dun wana waste it.
`jia hui laugh untill cry.
`hahaha.
`and anyway, the flowers dies very fast dont they?? =)
`so wat if she get it or i get it?
`no big deal anyway.
`yea. its dies very quickly.
`so wat ? you gonna marry her?
`fucker.
`u think u are the worst and saddest person in the world?
`wat do u think about those african children or those disables?
`wtf.
`ANYWAY,
`its nice that i got it. =)
`haha. i wont get married anyway.
`haha. tml got school hais.
`haha. i think he said bye to me or something?
`i din hear it. haha.
`sorry yea?? =) =)
Died with a secret within me. 11:32 PM
Her Last Words.
`Todae went for bxb.
`not bad la todae.
`but din have a chance to say bye! =(
`i wanted to say de actualli...
`but hais. ur back faced me. how to say bye.
`ZZZzz..... one week see you only once...
`den become liddat.
`forget it le lahss.....
`GGGGGRRRRRRRRRR.............
`anyway, later going for wedding dinnner!!!
`yay!!! haha.
`but i miss Mr.M lols.
`sorry for being random.
`lols.
`hope i dun get tripped over with my heels.
`very paiseh de.
`hehe. hope my hair and my clothes is in place.
`hahah. if not very sia suay.
`some dropped some retain... even quit school oso...
`it looks like a broken jigsaw puzzle.
`hais.
`sad.... ='(
Died with a secret within me. 1:22 PM
Her Last Words.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
`miss you alot.
`missing you and your guitar.
`now i wanna runaway with you.. to japan.
` i m getting so sick of my life now..
`getting so sick.
`tragedy.
`tragic.
`i want to forget everything and start a new life with you.
`just peacefully with you....
`i wana jus pretend as if nothing happened before.
`i wana stay in my own world.
`But i now very tired already.
`very tired...
`but i know none of this will happen...
`everything is just an illusion.
`just wished that i could see you everyday and thats enuff.
`but even this type of small things oso wun happen de.
`why cant i just drown in the sea.
` i am really tired now.
` i m wanan just quit.
`why not we make it the last xmas party? =)
`lol. but i kant... still got o-lvl.............
`so kant quit yet.
`I WANA QUIT!!!! GGGGRRRRRRR.........
`tml got bu xi ban.
`dun really feel like going.
`very tired.
`but still got the outing to cover...
`stilll got the outing dicussions and everything...
`getting rid off everything/everything getting rid of me.
Died with a secret within me. 9:26 PM
Her Last Words.
`20 oct 07 (III)
` ALL THANKS TO SOME FUCKING CHEEBAIS.
`SHE ALMOST STABBED HERSELF.
`SHE APOLOGISE TO HIM LE
`THEN WAT DOES HE WANNA DO????
`NEXT TIME DONT COME LAH.
`YA, WAT KIND OF FUCKING KINSHIP IS THIS.
`FUCKER.
`WTF.
`HENG SHE DIN DIE.
`IF SHE DIE, HE WILL OSO DIE.
`FUCKERS.
`they sucks to the core ah.
`they want to see her die den she can be not guilty of you, not watching jus a football match right?
fuckers.
becos of one football match then he wanna scold.
`he is a adult liao leh.
`wtf is he thinking???
`JUS BECOS OF ONE FOOTBALL MATCH DEN SCOLD LIKE WAT.
`GO MARRY THE FOOTBAL MATCH LAHS.
`STICK TO THE TV FOREVER LAH. wat shit lo.
`20 oct 07 (II)
`yay jus now have sooooooooo much fun with her.
`hahas. went to buy heels just now.
`Went to harbourfont jus now.
`haha. heng i go DMK jiu okay le.
`haha dun need go far east to buy.
`black color de.
`then went to vivo go walk walk.
`haha. then go eat longjohn.
`after that went to the railway station.
`took loads and loads of photos.
`its like those countryside de train station liddat.
`so nice... XD.
Died with a secret within me. 8:36 PM
Her Last Words.
`20 oct 07
`its raining heavily now.
`i m a bird now, i could fly freely! ^^
`huh? its getting really strange.
`wo men de guan xi hen qi guai. lols.
`hmmm.... i dunno leh.
`somehow.. we may be tired of each other de lahs. someday.
`expected de.
`no need to be sad or anything.
`HAHAHAHAHAHS~~~
`todae gonna get heels for wedding~~
`haha. not really heels lah. is "heels". lol.
`hope i really get one, becos tml is the day!!!!! GGGGGRRRRRR..
`if not no shoes to wear that day.
`hahas. so damn excited lahs. tml.
`hais, hope i dun look too ugly tml. if not i will nvr see them again.
`haha.
`i felt like quiting.
`i had enough already.
`but i still got o-lvls.
`and i kant "wang en fu yi."
`must go back to teach.
`i know how ppl feel when they jus come for tution,
`and runoff on the holidays.
`we are at the stubborn age wat, of cos lah.
`and u treat us really like in school,
the environment, the way u all scold and talk,
so those students will think that
" this is my 2nd school.." "holiday come bck for wat?"
`to dem, this jus like their 2nd school.
`u all may say, "yes, it is a 2nd school."
`u say wat bonding activities right?
`if there no friends how to bond????
`then they all shy shy shy. dun care dun care de.
`f*** lah.
`i dun wanna go le.
`getting so fed up.
`everytime i go i feel like i dun wana talk arh.
`but if u dun talk ppl say u anti-social.
`i jus wanna give black face and dun talk de.
`but i have to! i have to!
`i m soooooo not myself.
`ppl say go there is not ur self de mah.
`but izzit good??? izzit good? 2 face ppl very good meh?
`one day, everybody will go crazy i tell u first.
`keep stresssing us. wth.
`"its for ur own good."
`us student jus dun care i think.
`everybody says that, and we are tired of it already.
`i duno lahs. i dun wana care anymore.
`arhshole.
Died with a secret within me. 8:43 AM
Her Last Words.
Friday, October 19, 2007
`he said wat he felt jus now.
`i din want him to be my bf too.
`lol. but its like a chance missed, its like, "awwww~~ i missed it. XD"
`no, its like i want but i dun want,
soooo contradict.
`i dun understand how i feel abt him.
`its like i felt soo empty when i know his not there.
`when got larry they all walked pass in the parade sq,
`u know the pants all tighten de.
`his pants oso.
`but, i owaes wished it was him.
`but i know he wun be him.
`becos i know hes not there.
`i dun know. do i really like him? or jus merely missed him?
`but now i know i din go the wrong path.
`=) its okay yea.
`i know wat he means, its hard to imagine that he WAS my boyfriend,
`it will be like, "huh?!" *laughs*
`but i dun feel sad or anything, i jus smiled. =)
`mayb i knew it was better this way.
`mayb he feels the same too.
`i think lah.
`he said he not those kind of go for looks de.
`its heart-warming to hear that,
`but haha. we knew we are not meant to be tgt.
`so yea, we din choose the path to be tgt.
`its good. becos we could still communicate.
`like frens, not weird weird de feeling.
hopes he really finds the one he truly loves and he could imagine to be with. LOLS. XD.
`mayb it WAS expected, so i m not sad or anything.
`aww. i will miss him till death lah.
`but i hope he din cheat me or something. i trust him.
`its good that we felt the same thing abt each other.
`but it will be gone someday.
`but i cherish the moments with him. alot!
`haha. like dreams come true and dreams are over.
`both things at once.
`but i am still concerned abt him and his sicknes.
`overall, i lovedHim. =)
Died with a secret within me. 10:05 PM
Her Last Words.
`19 oct 07.
`yay!
passed everything except EL!!!
one more mark and i will pass el.
heng they all got heart, heng they are humans.
`i got to promote! woots.
`but its sad at the same time.
`felt sorry for them.
`those who din promote.
`=(((((
`now must buck up for my Os.
`and all the best for the O-lvl ppl!
`=)
`RETARDED. drop sch. GGGGRRRR. Krazy.
`as least i noe how he feels now. dun need think tooo much le.
`but its like i never got to see him ever again.
Died with a secret within me. 8:46 PM
Her Last Words.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Season's Call.
Defying the whirling wind,
I am searching for the lost season.
Even if it's only a little, it is towards the direction I'm aiming for
that vivid memories provoke me.
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?
Because I always feel you in me
Always, throughout my body,
you run about and seem to overflow.
That's why I'm not afraid, even tomorrow,
because I always feel you in me.
Having washed down my dry throat,
your name will moisten my heart.
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?
Like that faraway bird,
if only I could go soar across the sky,
I'd like to always be able to tell you of my love,
because I always feel you in me.
You taught me how to love
I feel I can do anything
The world sketched in the dream,
I want to unfold it before your eyes.
That's why I'm not afraid, even tomorrow,
My beloved season calls me,
because I always feel you in me. Died with a secret within me. 6:06 PM
Her Last Words.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
`jus now went for the "zoo trip" meeting.
`lol. everything went smoothly. (thats wats i think)
`but now still stress becos of him. GGGRRR...
`anyway, it was quite fn lah the meeting.. some craps here and there. lol!
`the but wenhao abit blur. not say blur but he has a thinking of his own.
`mayb abit to living in his own world.
`yay. the outing is getting better le. haha. now gonna look for clues. =)
Died with a secret within me. 9:56 PM
Her Last Words.
`he totally gave up his life.
`he gave up everything is his life.
`i dont know how to help him.
`i wanna help him.
`how?
`how to?
`i jus dont wanna see that. i knew i will regret.
`but how to help him?
`i wana see him happy, but i kant do it.
`how to? its like, he will never be happy again.
`i feeling of guilt is there. i dont know wat to do.
`to him, mayb i dont have to do anything, but,
`i will regret my whole life. i knew it.
`So much feeling, emotions, that it overflowed..
`i am so not fine at all.
`i hav to jus put that stupid smile on my face?!
`wat the hell?
`and theres still so much things for me to do.
`wat should i do?
`i just wanna cry out loud.
`u dying, u suffer the pain.
`i watch you dying, i suffer the pain that u suffer too.
`why? becos u are dying and i jus kant do anything?!
`the medicine doesnt even work, how do i help??
Died with a secret within me. 3:26 PM
Her Last Words.
`i feel going to zoo with him.
`but its weird lah.
`call him go zoo, he wun like it de.
`go zoo so sian.
`but i jus wanna share the same memory as him. =)
`its happy to be with him. =)
`but, yea. its jus imaginations.
Died with a secret within me. 3:17 PM
Her Last Words.
`todae our class went to temasek poly.
`sissie's sch.
`went to engineering school.
`i tot it was sian at 1st.
`but it was quite interesting when doing the pracitical.
`i did made a thing, something like a light will not be lighted up when got light,
`den later if its dark, got light le. lol. dunnno wats that.
`hmm.. learnt quite interesting.
`later got meeting at 7pm.
`jus feel like crying.
`i feel so bad lately.
`i jus dont feel good.
`one is sad if she will go down,
`one is, i will never get to see again.
`i feel so bad.
`i jus wanna scream like dunno wat.
`i feel like i wanna jus run away from everything now...
`i feel so shit...........................
`too much things already................
`ZZZZZ............
`aRGHHH..................
`SO STRESSED AND PRESSURIZED..
`ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........
`so worried for her, him, so many ppl.
`myself oso.
Died with a secret within me. 2:52 PM
