Her Last Words.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007

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Her Last Words.

`todae after school go find wen.
`hahahahahahas~
`finally bought for him!~
`XD XD
`hope he will like it... XD
`haha.
`very excited with his reaction lols!
`but hes still angry/sad i think... =(
`sorry... =(
`lols.

`tml modular day arh...
`ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
`stoopid lah.
`hais. sure go there sian de...
`computer games, bingo/sudoku, straw origami, den hmmm..... orh.
`jewelry making.. all the lame lame de activities lo.
`might as well dont come...
`hais. but enjoy the moments with kaiyun is good too. =)))
`if not i will miss her to death de........ =(((

Her Last Words.
Monday, October 22, 2007

`dun feel like going sch tml.
`all the activities on modular day really sucks.
`hmmmmmmmmmmm.
`waste time go there for wat????????
`now wanna go slp.
`ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......


`nothing to wirte todae. haahah.
`i want food! =(

Her Last Words.
Sunday, October 21, 2007

`i went to the wedding dinner just now!!!~
`he was soooooooooooooo cute todae...
`awww~~~~
`kant get my eyes off him! XD
`i saw him and then... WAH... it was him!! spike his hair oso!
`with the jacket....
`AWWWW~~~ i din recognized him.
`he rocks!!!

`wow. i was damn shocked i got it lahs...
`but soooooooooo many ppl was sooo bu shuang that i got
the bouquet.
`especially him, _ _ _ _ _ .
`he said that it was suppose to be someone get de.
`but, i got it lah.
`u think i want de ah?
`i giv her lah.
`wats the big deal if you LOVe her?
`its like fuck lah.
`send me the video lah. i wana see.
`yayayaya she get de she get de.
`fucker lah. i dun want such cheap bouquet le.
`actualli wanna throw away, since its not mine, ITS HER AWAY.
`i dun want other ppl's things.
`the sucked yea.
`but becos its their couple's blessing and its my first life, 1st bouquet.
`haha. dun wana waste it.
`jia hui laugh untill cry.
`hahaha.
`and anyway, the flowers dies very fast dont they?? =)
`so wat if she get it or i get it?
`no big deal anyway.
`yea. its dies very quickly.
`so wat ? you gonna marry her?
`fucker.
`u think u are the worst and saddest person in the world?
`wat do u think about those african children or those disables?
`wtf.



`ANYWAY,
`its nice that i got it. =)
`haha. i wont get married anyway.
`haha. tml got school hais.
`haha. i think he said bye to me or something?
`i din hear it. haha.
`sorry yea?? =) =)

Her Last Words.

`Todae went for bxb.
`not bad la todae.
`but din have a chance to say bye! =(
`i wanted to say de actualli...
`but hais. ur back faced me. how to say bye.
`ZZZzz..... one week see you only once...
`den become liddat.
`forget it le lahss.....
`GGGGGRRRRRRRRRR.............

`anyway, later going for wedding dinnner!!!
`yay!!! haha.
`but i miss Mr.M lols.
`sorry for being random.
`lols.
`hope i dun get tripped over with my heels.
`very paiseh de.
`hehe. hope my hair and my clothes is in place.
`hahah. if not very sia suay.


`some dropped some retain... even quit school oso...
`it looks like a broken jigsaw puzzle.
`hais.
`sad.... ='(

Her Last Words.
Saturday, October 20, 2007

`miss you alot.
`missing you and your guitar.
`now i wanna runaway with you.. to japan.

` i m getting so sick of my life now..
`getting so sick.
`tragedy.
`tragic.
`i want to forget everything and start a new life with you.
`just peacefully with you....
`i wana jus pretend as if nothing happened before.
`i wana stay in my own world.

`But i now very tired already.
`very tired...
`but i know none of this will happen...
`everything is just an illusion.
`just wished that i could see you everyday and thats enuff.
`but even this type of small things oso wun happen de.


`why cant i just drown in the sea.
` i am really tired now.
` i m wanan just quit.
`why not we make it the last xmas party? =)
`lol. but i kant... still got o-lvl.............
`so kant quit yet.
`I WANA QUIT!!!! GGGGRRRRRRR.........


`tml got bu xi ban.
`dun really feel like going.
`very tired.
`but still got the outing to cover...
`stilll got the outing dicussions and everything...
`getting rid off everything/everything getting rid of me.

Her Last Words.

`20 oct 07 (III)


` ALL THANKS TO SOME FUCKING CHEEBAIS.
`SHE ALMOST STABBED HERSELF.
`SHE APOLOGISE TO HIM LE
`THEN WAT DOES HE WANNA DO????

`NEXT TIME DONT COME LAH.
`YA, WAT KIND OF FUCKING KINSHIP IS THIS.
`FUCKER.
`WTF.
`HENG SHE DIN DIE.
`IF SHE DIE, HE WILL OSO DIE.

`FUCKERS.
`they sucks to the core ah.
`they want to see her die den she can be not guilty of you, not watching jus a football match right?
fuckers.
becos of one football match then he wanna scold.
`he is a adult liao leh.
`wtf is he thinking???
`JUS BECOS OF ONE FOOTBALL MATCH DEN SCOLD LIKE WAT.
`GO MARRY THE FOOTBAL MATCH LAHS.
`STICK TO THE TV FOREVER LAH. wat shit lo.



`20 oct 07 (II)

`yay jus now have sooooooooo much fun with her.
`hahas. went to buy heels just now.
`Went to harbourfont jus now.
`haha. heng i go DMK jiu okay le.
`haha dun need go far east to buy.
`black color de.
`then went to vivo go walk walk.
`haha. then go eat longjohn.
`after that went to the railway station.
`took loads and loads of photos.
`its like those countryside de train station liddat.
`so nice... XD.

Her Last Words.

`20 oct 07
`its raining heavily now.
`i m a bird now, i could fly freely! ^^


`huh? its getting really strange.
`wo men de guan xi hen qi guai. lols.
`hmmm.... i dunno leh.
`somehow.. we may be tired of each other de lahs. someday.
`expected de.
`no need to be sad or anything.

`HAHAHAHAHAHS~~~
`todae gonna get heels for wedding~~
`haha. not really heels lah. is "heels". lol.
`hope i really get one, becos tml is the day!!!!! GGGGGRRRRRR..
`if not no shoes to wear that day.
`hahas. so damn excited lahs. tml.
`hais, hope i dun look too ugly tml. if not i will nvr see them again.
`haha.


`i felt like quiting.
`i had enough already.
`but i still got o-lvls.
`and i kant "wang en fu yi."
`must go back to teach.
`i know how ppl feel when they jus come for tution,
`and runoff on the holidays.
`we are at the stubborn age wat, of cos lah.
`and u treat us really like in school,
the environment, the way u all scold and talk,
so those students will think that
" this is my 2nd school.." "holiday come bck for wat?"
`to dem, this jus like their 2nd school.
`u all may say, "yes, it is a 2nd school."
`u say wat bonding activities right?
`if there no friends how to bond????
`then they all shy shy shy. dun care dun care de.

`f*** lah.
`i dun wanna go le.
`getting so fed up.
`everytime i go i feel like i dun wana talk arh.
`but if u dun talk ppl say u anti-social.
`i jus wanna give black face and dun talk de.
`but i have to! i have to!
`i m soooooo not myself.
`ppl say go there is not ur self de mah.
`but izzit good??? izzit good? 2 face ppl very good meh?
`one day, everybody will go crazy i tell u first.


`keep stresssing us. wth.
`"its for ur own good."
`us student jus dun care i think.
`everybody says that, and we are tired of it already.
`i duno lahs. i dun wana care anymore.
`arhshole.

Her Last Words.
Friday, October 19, 2007

`he said wat he felt jus now.
`i din want him to be my bf too.
`lol. but its like a chance missed, its like, "awwww~~ i missed it. XD"
`no, its like i want but i dun want,
soooo contradict.

`i dun understand how i feel abt him.
`its like i felt soo empty when i know his not there.
`when got larry they all walked pass in the parade sq,
`u know the pants all tighten de.
`his pants oso.
`but, i owaes wished it was him.
`but i know he wun be him.
`becos i know hes not there.
`i dun know. do i really like him? or jus merely missed him?
`but now i know i din go the wrong path.
`=) its okay yea.
`i know wat he means, its hard to imagine that he WAS my boyfriend,
`it will be like, "huh?!" *laughs*
`but i dun feel sad or anything, i jus smiled. =)
`mayb i knew it was better this way.
`mayb he feels the same too.
`i think lah.

`he said he not those kind of go for looks de.
`its heart-warming to hear that,
`but haha. we knew we are not meant to be tgt.
`so yea, we din choose the path to be tgt.
`its good. becos we could still communicate.
`like frens, not weird weird de feeling.
hopes he really finds the one he truly loves and he could imagine to be with. LOLS. XD.
`mayb it WAS expected, so i m not sad or anything.

`aww. i will miss him till death lah.
`but i hope he din cheat me or something. i trust him.
`its good that we felt the same thing abt each other.
`but it will be gone someday.
`but i cherish the moments with him. alot!
`haha. like dreams come true and dreams are over.
`both things at once.
`but i am still concerned abt him and his sicknes.


`overall, i lovedHim. =)

Her Last Words.

`19 oct 07.


`yay!
passed everything except EL!!!
one more mark and i will pass el.
heng they all got heart, heng they are humans.
`i got to promote! woots.
`but its sad at the same time.
`felt sorry for them.
`those who din promote.
`=(((((

`now must buck up for my Os.
`and all the best for the O-lvl ppl!
`=)


`RETARDED. drop sch. GGGGRRRR. Krazy.
`as least i noe how he feels now. dun need think tooo much le.
`but its like i never got to see him ever again.

Her Last Words.
Thursday, October 18, 2007

Season's Call.


Defying the whirling wind,
I am searching for the lost season.
Even if it's only a little, it is towards the direction I'm aiming for
that vivid memories provoke me.
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?

Because I always feel you in me
Always, throughout my body,
you run about and seem to overflow.
That's why I'm not afraid, even tomorrow,
because I always feel you in me.

Having washed down my dry throat,
your name will moisten my heart.
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?

Like that faraway bird,
if only I could go soar across the sky,
I'd like to always be able to tell you of my love,
because I always feel you in me.

You taught me how to love
I feel I can do anything

The world sketched in the dream,
I want to unfold it before your eyes.
That's why I'm not afraid, even tomorrow,
My beloved season calls me,
because I always feel you in me.

Her Last Words.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007

`jus now went for the "zoo trip" meeting.
`lol. everything went smoothly. (thats wats i think)
`but now still stress becos of him. GGGRRR...
`anyway, it was quite fn lah the meeting.. some craps here and there. lol!
`the but wenhao abit blur. not say blur but he has a thinking of his own.
`mayb abit to living in his own world.
`yay. the outing is getting better le. haha. now gonna look for clues. =)

Her Last Words.

`he totally gave up his life.
`he gave up everything is his life.
`i dont know how to help him.
`i wanna help him.
`how?
`how to?
`i jus dont wanna see that. i knew i will regret.
`but how to help him?
`i wana see him happy, but i kant do it.
`how to? its like, he will never be happy again.
`i feeling of guilt is there. i dont know wat to do.
`to him, mayb i dont have to do anything, but,
`i will regret my whole life. i knew it.
`So much feeling, emotions, that it overflowed..
`i am so not fine at all.
`i hav to jus put that stupid smile on my face?!
`wat the hell?
`and theres still so much things for me to do.
`wat should i do?
`i just wanna cry out loud.
`u dying, u suffer the pain.
`i watch you dying, i suffer the pain that u suffer too.
`why? becos u are dying and i jus kant do anything?!
`the medicine doesnt even work, how do i help??

Her Last Words.

`i feel going to zoo with him.
`but its weird lah.
`call him go zoo, he wun like it de.
`go zoo so sian.
`but i jus wanna share the same memory as him. =)
`its happy to be with him. =)
`but, yea. its jus imaginations.

Her Last Words.

`todae our class went to temasek poly.
`sissie's sch.
`went to engineering school.
`i tot it was sian at 1st.
`but it was quite interesting when doing the pracitical.
`i did made a thing, something like a light will not be lighted up when got light,
`den later if its dark, got light le. lol. dunnno wats that.
`hmm.. learnt quite interesting.

`later got meeting at 7pm.







`jus feel like crying.

`i feel so bad lately.

`i jus dont feel good.
`one is sad if she will go down,
`one is, i will never get to see again.
`i feel so bad.
`i jus wanna scream like dunno wat.
`i feel like i wanna jus run away from everything now...
`i feel so shit...........................

`too much things already................
`ZZZZZ............
`aRGHHH..................
`SO STRESSED AND PRESSURIZED..
`ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

`so worried for her, him, so many ppl.
`myself oso.

Her Last Words.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007

`A bad day todae.




`SOOOOOO FED UP WITH SOOOOOOO MANY THINGS!!!!!!!!!!
`worry abt results, worry abt kena drop or retain,
`worry abt chalet, worry abt outing.
`wtf lah.




`ARGHHHHHH........
`dunno lah.
`i m not good at anything.
`stupid, unsensitive, bad attitude, petty,
retarded lah.
`call me do one thing oso kant do properly.
`wtf lah. i am this weak can anot?
`can anot?

`So presssurized lah.
` i dunno lah.
`or only me and wenhao do okay liao lah.
`nevermind de.
`dun wana bother/disturb/mafan other ppl.
`others so damn busy.
`me and wenhao two ppl can le.
`lesser arguements, lesser objects, better communication.
`good wat hor? we finish le den hand up proposal to them lo.
`as easy as ABC.
`yea? agree?
`nth is as simpler as that.
`we are so damn free mah. after exam.
`most free ppl in FT le.

Her Last Words.
Sunday, October 14, 2007

`14 oct 07 (II)



`awwwwww~~ they went out. ='(
`awww... HAHA. lols!
`haha. i din wanna go myself.
`hehe. dun wanna add on in their gang.
`hahaha... i am the SPOILER. >: D
`EVIL MOOD spoiler. >:D
`LOLS! i dont care about wat friendship or anything le.
`its jus meaningless dont your think? =)
`so i din go out wit them or something.
`it enuff jus to stay home alone and listen to conspiracy.
`heheheheh. EMO brat ah.
`lol. i dun know hahahahah jus wanna laugh. XD
`i dont think i belong there or anything.
`i jus dun care yea?? =))))))
`later got ci mian. hehe.. din go. becos i NOT jiao dao yuan.
`:P:P
`yea, i got this feeling that i wanna jus laugh things off from now on.
`its meaningless to be sad, angry or anything.
`my sis will probably be angry if she sees this.
`she will tot i angry de.
`hahahahahha. i dunno leh, angry for wat??? LOLS!
`meaningless and pointless wat.
`dunno wat to do now so blog.


`oh ya, jus now i ate the "he ye fan".
`damn nice XDXD
`eat untill i now want one more....~
`i want fooooooooooooooooood.
`foooooooooooooooooooooooood.


`now damn sian... msn spoil....kant tok to ppl.


[RANDOM TOPIC]

`hmmmm...... u know how it feels like
when u have nobody to hug when ur down
but only to hug ur doll/pillow or hug ur knees?
it really sad u know. hahah.
jus sudden tot of this.
hmmmm....... still got wat?
(sorry for being crazy, keep toking to myself. but who in the world dun tok to itself?)

Her Last Words.

`14 oct 07




`sunday.
`weather: fine.


`SAW HiM TODAE! XD
`lol. wave to him den he pretend nothin happen.
`mayb he nvr see. or his acting skills pro?
`lol. opps... later someone see liao den anyhow spread den i die.
`nvm.



`todae i feel like a rock being thrown down on my shoulder.
`sudden stress.
`weiliang say only two IC discuss better.
`not much arguement or wat.
`but please lah, not say i wat lah, but its like only us two?!
`den its like we 1ST TIME organize, then of cos we kant manage by only the two of us.
`kant touch the sec4s nevermind.
`i kant decide on anything de, i m that kinda person.
`then wenhao keep deciding his stuff, i oso dunno wat to do lah.
`so confusing lah... not i dun like him to decide or wat
`is like we din know what to do, he jus decide,
den i dunno whether izzit right or wrong,
or good or bad.
`i sense that wenhao is stress oso he din know wat to do.
`me? haa, worst lah.. i din know wat to do oso.
`then he cannot manage, i cannot manage, then how?
`only two of us only good mah u say?
`is not i bu shuang, is i know that only two of us CANNOT manage for sure.
`We just want a successful and happy outing trip for them.
`thats the criteria.
`then if only us decide very weak liddat,
then those "senpai" will say not good this not good that.
`hais, i jus wanted some advise jiu okay le.
`now is like no way to go and no path to start.
`mayb u think we are weak, never use brain to think or wadeva,
`but its the truth we 1st time, not everybody like u all so li hai?
`ya?

`hais. but thank goodness, wen wen, weiliang, zhenqin, ri an, jieqi helped out,
we are so damn lost jus now lah. must thanks them. =)
`but now is better le, noe where to start and abit know wat to do le.

`but then, still need organize for class de chalet... BRAIN BURST AH.
(for a weakling like me lah. not
like those li hai li hai de ppl in ft could plan sooo much thing at once.)
`haha. oso not decide yet thats y its uncertain to organize for the chalet thing.
`very worrying oso. but its best that our class can gather tgt for the last time or something.
`and hope that they could have fun and make it memorable.
`haha. but troublesome oso lah when it comes to money.
`secOne oso liddat, worst arh, other class ppl like martin, marcus,
come meddle then took the bed,
`NVR PAY MONEY.
`ME, nvr eat anything, nvr sleep ur till the bed oso need to pay money.
`bastard lah. ZZZzz....

`hope if possible lah, can organize one nice nice de for them.
hahaa. not possible lah got marcus dey all. but i oso not going so i am not gonna clean up the mess for them. LOLSSSSSS!!!!!!!!
`heng got elaine, mayb still can control hahahaha.

`the results oso dan f****ing stress.
`NEED TO WORRY U WILL PROMOTE ANOT.
`ZZZZzzz.... Still call me study during hols?! haa, wait long long.
`KANT EVEN RELAX FOR AWHILE?! WTF.
`soooooooooooo damn stress ah. bridging not counted lah.
`haiya. hope can get a good nite sleep todae jiu okay le lah.
`ASSSSHOLLE.
`WANNA SCREAM LIKE F*** NOW.
`GGGGGRRRR....................

Her Last Words.
Friday, October 12, 2007

`12 oct 07 (II)




`Ahhh~~~....
`Sleeping so soundly de....
`den SHE WOKE ME UP!!! GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRrr......
`Damn fed up lahs...
`she phoned me, den i "shocked(woke)" up from my sleep!
`my soul not even back yet lahs....
`now i noe wats, "dun wake me up lah.."
`idiotic lah.
`den i kant sleep le.
`after that, i feel theres something inside me that wants to comeout.
`haha. mayb the soul haven come back is liddat de.
`lol. now oso feel like sleeping ah... allllll thanks to her.

`haha. now missing him alot.
`wait, i know it SOUNDS pervertic.
`lol. but i dont know leh.
`this is the 1st time i like him "unconditionally"?
`i know this word is..... asshole...
`but i dont know... i dont mind if he is proud, or... shy.. or anything.
`i jus like that way he is.
`not like other i think.. complaining about this and that.
`haha. ppl say crush is liddat de -
the uncertainty,
the unsecureness,
the sadnesss,
sometimes sweet,
and everything is like a dream.
`haha. i dont need him,
or i dont need him to love me or wat.
`i dont care if he has another
person that he crushes on..
`IF he has a girlfriend,
than i will choose another path of cos. HAHA.
`but i jus hope that i could know him more and jus care for him sometimes.
`and if his sad, i would like to smile to him and say,"hey, cheer up okay? "
`and to understand how he feels and jus be his friend.
`haha thats wat i jus hoped if he ever speak up yea?
`*laughs* i know its silly yea?
`i was wondering everytime, is he shy to talk to us or wat?
`HAHA. XD we din even talk?! why u like him?!
`ppl owaes ask me this. i dont care/dont know.
`He is jus someone special to me. =)
`seeing his smile, makes me smile ALOT. lol!!
`hes like a sunshine to me. his smile, haha.. so shiny. like sunshine liddat.

`but i want to know is that, the meaning behind the smile.
`izzit really shiny? or its just fake?
in other words,
i just wanna feel how he feels and
know HOw he feels.

Her Last Words.

`12 oct 07


`its gonna rain.
`the unexpected day that ppl hate is here...


`the unexpected is expected by ppl.
`the class atmosphere was idiotic.

`emo, sad, down, upset, all kinds..
`but some is okay. like me. =)
`i feel the atmosphere, so i din wanna blend in.
`i only feel sad during mid-years. i din noe why.
`ky asked me too. haha. i forgot about it too.

`my friend were really sad.
`i really wanna do something but,
`nothing. entertain them? talk to them?
`i dont know.
`but not to be sad tgt with them is wat i chose to do.

`i din feel really bad becos, "cried over spilled milk" yea?
`sad for wat? this is wat i deserve better.
`the punishment that i deserve.
`i feel okay now.


`todae watched the guy named nick.
`he has no limbs - no legs or arms, only a body and a head.
`he makes ppl feel that, hey, hes not physically disabled at all.
`he has confidence in everything he do, and has confidence on how he looks.
`if u were him, will u do the same thing?
`or will u depress becos ppl tease u have no limbs and nvr step outta hse again?

`love urself for who you are and what you do.
`if ppl dun accept u, you urself will.

`stand up if you fall down.
`if you failed for 100 times, dont chose to give up.
`even if you do, u wont ever stand up ever again.
`but when u tried, on the 101 time, u did it, u will nvr noe when u gave up right?

` i really admired him alot.
`he really got that confidence to tell u that, hey, i has no limbs so wat? i dun care.
`hes really a good encourager.

`there was once, he went to a party or something,
`a little girl about 3 to 4 yrs old,
`was hugging everybody but when she looked at
`nick for awhile, she stunned.
`after 25 seconds, she realise he has no arms or legs.
`u know wat she did?
`she put her hands at the back and hugged nick using her neck.

`its like awww....



`he oso said that having a girlfriend or boyfriend is
jus a prove or make you feel that you are being loved,
or theres someone really cares about you.
`he oso said,
" hey, you know, i have a wife. i really loved her.
i dont have a wife now,
but i know she is waiting for me and
we are having a baby.
when my baby is not in good mood or sad,
i m gonna hug the baby and say,
hey dun cry daddy's here for you... "

`hes words are really are amazing and true.
` i agree. =)

`i believe in miracles.
`miracles do happen. =)

`yes, it do happens. no, it really happens.
`so i hope that he will definitely recover.
`no not hope, is surelly will de.
`haha. believe in it, and it WILL be. =)
` and i will go to his concert, go japan with him and everything.
`and see the "happily ever after" with his gf. haha.
`its really sweet to imagine. lol.

Her Last Words.
Thursday, October 11, 2007

`11 Oct 07



1) Sometimes i look cold just so you would hold me.

2) All she need is someone that will love her endlessly.

3) A good friend will come bail you out of jail.
A True friend will be sitting next to you and say "Damn, we F**ked up..."

4) The way i feel about you is something i cant explain,
The way i react when i hear your name.

5) If he/she caught you staring, then at least you know he/she was looking back~

6) I rather argue with you than kiss someone else.

7) She's the type of Girl who will try not to like you,
but she just ends up falling even harder..

8) We often ignore those who want us, and crave for those who won't.

9) I'm so scared that i'll want to love you forever and
you'll only want me for a few moments in your life.

10) She might say that she hates him, but inside, she would die without him.

11) Smiles and makeups covers up so much these days.

12) If you dont like me, theres nothing i can do. i dont live to please you.

13) I spend too much time thinking about things that will never happen,
and dressing up for the guy that will never cares.

14) Sometimes all she wants to do is to run away.

15) Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.

16) Somethings you cant see with your eyes, but with your heart.

17) All she wants to hear is that you miss her when shes not around.

18)
Why can't i be that girl,
the one you talk to your friends about,
the one that puts a gorgeous smile on your face,
The one that you want to be with..

19)
All I want to do is to talk to you..
but, everytime i open my mouths,
words never come out.

20) Its hard to have no one to hold on when you feel alone.

21) The greatest challenge in life,
is to find someone who knows all your
flaws, differences, and mistakes,
and yet still sees the best in you.

22) its every girls dream to have a guy call her at 3am just to say i love you.

23) I talked louder and laughed harder just to get you look my way.

24)
And when it comes down to it,
he's all i ever think about,
and all i dream about.
Everytime we talk, i have the perfect smile on my face.
but it doesnt really matter now,
cause i know it will never happen.

25) Good girls are bad girls that dont get caught.

Her Last Words.

Her Last Words.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Tell me - Wonder girls.




`10 Oct 07



`Nothing much to do today...
`sms ppl,
`play games,
`Listen to music..
`run errands for my mother..
`do some house chores..

`nothing is much simpler
than anything when ur alone at home in the hols.
`Its like,
`Nothing. Simple.

`this is when u put aside everything
`and *laughs* its like u have totally nth to worry about.
`carefree,
`forgot everything.


`Its not that i want ppl to call me out or wat.
`i don wanna go out,
`jus stay at home.
`jus stick urself to the games.
`its better this way.
`u will feel so free this way.



`haha. jus now "pei he" that smart kido - (Melancholy!)
on msn.
`haha. so crazy lah... talking total craps.
`lol.
`its fun talking rubbish sometmes too.
`haha. but when u over do it....................
`it...s.......r.e...a.llly.... ........id..iot...ic.
`lol.



`my dog really wants to go out badly..
`but too bad.. its gonna rain soon. :(
lol.

Her Last Words.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007

`wheesung's love is tasty.
`FT.Island's love sickness.
`Typhoon's Only you.
`Wonder girls' Tell me and Irony.
`My laogong Eeseungki's new song. piano version de. my lullaby. :D
`still got poppin hyun joon's dont stop.
`suju's dont don.
`now aiming for Kil Gun's new song. chae yeon de oso.


`09 Oct 07


`DISASTER! TERRIBLE!


`ahh... XO
`kant finish everything in time.
`alot duno how to do oso.
`the paper 2 is 80 marks.
`weird.
`ppl asked the teacher jus now.. but is liddat de.


`todae see his face like very sad liddat.
`like very lonely liddat.
`hmmm.... dunno wat happen to him oso.
`forget it. why so concern abt him?


`lol. hmmm.. nth much to say but...
its good that every exam ended.
`but, the results are nightmare yea?

`hais. really sick this morning.
but heng can survive thru the maths paper.

`now better already. :D
`can play games le.. finally..
`but no mood to play.
`no mood to go out oso.
`feeling emo? mayb baa.
`mayb concern abt the results.
`feel like locking myself in the house.


`later still need to go take thing at cresent.
sooooooo troublesome. ZZzzz...

Her Last Words.
Monday, October 08, 2007

`08 OCT 07 (III)




`yay! organising the outing for those A-students!
`lol! damn excited!
becos i organised the previous time but i din get
to go becos of some idiotic cca stuff.
`but i get to organise it with him.
haha. not wen hao of cos! oh gosh!
`its good and bad that u get to be the organizer.
but over all, i get to try. heheeheehehe.


`yea. its him.. missing him. lol.
din talk for about one year?!
exagerrating huh? lol.
`do i really like him? yes? no?
`omg i dun know!
`i jus like to be ard him sometimes..
`sees his smile, its like, it brightens up my day!
`haha. he IS so cute!
`but we will nvr be together.
`its jus dreams..
`at least the dreams is still beautiful.
`nothing is true anyway.

`okay. back to the topic.
`the xmas party is coming too~~~~~`
the MOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSt exciting
part of the year is the XMAS PARTY!!!! AHHH!!! scream ppl scream ppl!!! XD
`i really want to buy something specially for him..
BUT, to prevent ppl's suspecting and rumours, its best not to. =)
`oh ya, must prepare a dish too...
`i hate cooking yea. my skills sucks.
`but its okay if u jus do some small small desserts or something. haha.
`my second xmas with them!

`come xmas! come to me! =) =)

Her Last Words.

`08 oct 07 (II)

`nth to do now so blog.
_____________________________________

`nothing feels right to me.
`ppl, emotions, places, memories,
all mixed up.
`i feel so empty..
`theres something in me that wants to come out.
`my emotions jus couldn't stop but
keep oveflowing.

`its raning now.
`its raining heavily now..
`its like tears keep running down my cheek..

`我觉得。。我欠了很多人。。
`伤了很多人。。
`同时，自己也伤了自己。。
`我不知道我发生了什么事。。。
`我只想忘记一切。。
`从头开始。。


`i am very lost and feel really shit now.

` theres no place right for me.
`i dun belong anywhere.
`anywhere cant fit me in.


`its like a broken puzzle,
`the last piece is gone.

Her Last Words.

`kaze no uta



`08 oct 07.

`todaes day was not bad hmmm... quite bad actualli..
`not bad lah the chem... not VERY hard.
`still can manage.
`can say easy lah..





`stupid mafia...
sit beside me for wat?!
`see him i want to die ah!
`talk to me somemore... GGGrrrrr....

`wow. saw his blog todae.
damn cool sia.
`he and his girlfriend, so sweet! XD
`really nice couple.
`i hope i would find my true guy and have sweet life like them! XD
`haha.. its not possible yea? (theres no forever or true love or wat..)
`lols. they damn sweet sia.

`he is like in those main character(male) in the movies:
-the gf is the main character(female)
-gave up on the world but only his gf,
- has got a sweet girlfriend, (willing to die for him or something???)
-VERY sick,
-background = mafia,
-fight frequently,
-smokes,
-doing all the mafia stuffs,
-but in the end changed his way of life,
-going to die very soon,
-and handsome and all that.

`haha really like those mafia movie.
`then when he die or take operation,
(can u imagine?)
those scenes in the movies where:
`the girlfriend outside very sad,
cry like hell,
waiting for him outside.
`prayed for his well-being.
`and if his operation
is successful,
`she will visit him everyday,
`bring flowers to him everyday,
`the girlfriend will hold his
hand everyday in the hospital,
`and call him to wake up as fast as he could.
`or something like, "*sniffs* pls wake up...*sniffs* i am waiting for you!"
(something like that?? ya? can imagine? LOLS!)
`and if he wakes up,
the gf very very happy untill
she cry,
hug him and all that.

`and the guy will say, "here i am, dont cry.."
`[and they lived happily ever after..]
`then happy ending or wadeva. LOLS!!
hahahhahahaahs....
`can write a book liao.



`LOLS! its jus the movies or those series..
lol. really alike. come to think of it,
its quite romantic yet funny..
`lols!!! becos its like the movies.



`so cool, i gotta friend like in the movies.
`hahaha.

Her Last Words.
Sunday, October 07, 2007

`07 oct 07




`Todae's weather is quite bad actualli.


`the sky is crying for all the heart-broken ppl..
`when the rain drips from the windows of the bus,
`it looks like tears running someone's face.



`todae's day was real bad..
(thou it doesn't seems like.)
`weiliang say,
"i really dunno how to teach eh seriously... my teaching skills are real bad.."
`i was thinking, "nononono.. is i difficult to teach, not ur skills bad."
`then i was SLOWER THAN AVG mah..
DAMN HARD TO TEACH DE.
`yea.. i AM slower than avg. or.. wadeva..
`my subjects really sucks.. so?
`my brain is really slow... so?
`wadeva.

`forget it. wanna look down on me or wadeva,
is not my business yea..
`or its jus the fact ya?
`i too sensitive?? wadeva.



`anyway, its good that theres still
something to cheer me up.
`HAHA! its yong hwee's PSP!!! :D:D
`lol. played the dynasty warrior for abit.
`hard to control, but will get the hang of it if u play more.
`HAHAHA!!! got metal slug oso!!!! hahahaha...
`so addicted to it. so damn happy lah, the psp.. XD
`played out of ft untill i almost reach interchange.
`lol. must really find time in the hols. to go play his dynasty warrior xbox de.
`i forever excited abt his dynasty warrior de.
lol.

Her Last Words.
Saturday, October 06, 2007

The problems with BOYS:


`If u TREAT him nicely,
he will think that u like him;
`If u DONT,
he says u have no manners.


`If u DRESS nicely,
he says u are trying to lure or flirt with the guys;
`If u Dont,
he says u have no money to buy clothes .


`If u ARGUE with him,
he says u are not lady-like;
`If u keep Quiet,
he says u r a loser.

`If u are SMARTER than him,
he will say it's normal;
`If he's Smarter than u,
he will say ur useless.

`If u don't LOVE/LIKE him,
he tries to attract ur attention;
`If u LOVE him,
he will try to LEAVE u.

`If u tell him your problem,
he says u are TROUBLESOME;
`If u don't, he says that u r secretive


`If u SCOLD him,
he says u r not his mother;
`If he SCOLDS u,
he will say it's for ur own good

`If u BREAK your PROMISE,
there is no 2nd chance;
`If he BREAKS his promise,
he had no other choice.

`If u SMOKE,
u r a gangster,
`If he SMOKES,
it helps him to forget the stress.

`If u do WELL in your EMS,
he says it's tyco;
`If he does WELL,
he will say "hardwork pays off".

`If u HURT him,
u are selfish;
`If he HURTS u,
u are too IMMATURE!!.


`BOYS...are SO HARD TO PLEASE!!!!
`BOYS...are SO TROUBLESOME!!!
`US GIRLS, WHAT TO DO?!?!

Her Last Words.
Friday, October 05, 2007

05 Oct 07


`life, is cruel & unexpected.
`i saw a crow eating a big dead rat
when i was walking to interchange.
`its like, omg lahhzzz..
`so cruel!
`and the rat was like in the middle of the pathway.
`the rat die, oso din die peacefully.
`saddening de.
`but i know an animal's life is liddat de.
`in life everybody knows that no one knows when him or her will die.
`its like no tomorrow de.
`or perhaps, u dun know noe whether u've got a tomorrow or not.
`its not certain.





`todae's maths is hmmm....
`easy? no? hmmm... not sure.
`most of it okayyy..
`hmmmm...
`hope can pass?
`yea.. if not i ppr2 oso dunno how to do..
then i die le.
`hmm... i almost all the question know how to do.

`i feel that my maths have improved
ever since jieqi drill me on my maths.
`haha.
`but it not perfect de lah.
`ya lo. like wat he said, i sure got wrong in sumthing de.
`but also,
`must thank him alot.
`if not, i think todae's paper will be 90% blank.
`thanks jie qi! XD






`walao eh..
`todae i saw him again lah f***er.
`i really hate him alot.
`i see him i really wanna vomit.
`i dun even wana look at him.
`i wanna gin him.
`but end of the week le.
`hais. kant do that.
`yea, nxt week!
`nxt week can gin him!
`sorry im so sick. lol.

Her Last Words.
Thursday, October 04, 2007

04 oct 07





`conspiracy by paramore




`i think october is the season of singapore,
that flowers start to blossom.
`i saw the tree near my house there oso..
`the leaves... jus like autum. =)
`when i saw the flowers at the expressway,
its really nice and it makes u feel happy..
`oso the flowers at the trees, its really nice. =)
`sometimes, little things like that in your life could make you happy.
`This kinda feeling is really nice sometimes.
`and oso the morning sky todae is not normal.
`its pink in colour! (i noe it sounds stupid)
`and it turns purple too.
`its like wow.. everytime the sky is like, blue? dark blue?
`=) =)









`damn tired after sch todae....
`why do he have to laugh so loud during recess?
`seeking attention ah?
`hais. let boys be boys....
`uuntill the whole canteen could hear his laughing lahhhh. ZZZz..


`my exams are a messs...
`haiz. art sure fail de lah.
`its really sux.
`tml is ppr1 of maths.

`I DON WANNA SEE HIM!
GGGGRRRRR....... I HATE HIM! >=(

Her Last Words.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Yeah..
love is pain..

"Dedicated to all the heartbroken ppl..
One's old a flame..
just scream my name..
damn...
im so sick of love songs.
and hate damn love songs..
Memento of ours..
Koh Jir Mah!! (Lies!) "

A late night and rain falling down.
I bring you back from my memories.
I promised myself i would be fine without.
But i kant help it.
I drank alcohol i couldnt drink.
Trying to fill my empty heart.
A day without you is TOO long.
I pray that i may pls forget you.
(thats a lie)
"Without you, happiness cannot be."
"i cant even shed a tear."
"i dun wanna live anymore."

YEAH. THIS IS BULLSHIT.
its pissing me off.
in tots of you,
i m going crazy....
i want to see you.
But i m being told,
i cant.
That its all over.
(ill be right there!)

Chorus:
"Im so sorry but i love you."
Its all a lie.
I din know, but i know now, that i need you.
"im so sorry but i love you.."
Out of anger,
I pushed you away
with those piercing words
Without realizing..

" im so sorry but i love you."
its all a lie.

im so sorry....
but i love you...
(i love you more and more..)

im so sorry but i love you
that its all a lie..
Will you leave & forget me slowly.........
So that i could be in pain.


Verse two:

I dedicated my all into this song for you..
[other people probably dont know.]

By myself, without anybody knowing.
THOSE WORDS I SAID WERE LIES.

A loner left behind all alone,
And me,
lost in the mist of it all,
The breakup letter that wrinkled
and folder up in my pocket.
[And my habits of calling your name and wondering where you are....]
im gonna change.
i'll laugh everything off from now on.

(Chorus)

i hope its all a dream.
because i only add up to that much.

"Drop that thing."

I still kant forget you....
No, i dun think i ever will...
Even till the day i die..
YEah~


Did the scars i gave you healed?
im sorry but i never got to do anything for you..


im so sorry but i love you
Will you leave & forget me slowly.........
So that i could be in pain..

Her Last Words.

Her Last Words.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007

`Listening to 'Lie' now.



Social Studies test todae.
Hais.
all i did ytd nite was useless, meaningless.
i studied managing healthcare in britain and s'pore.

in the end,
i did conflict in ireland.
which i've got more confidence in..

dots.

din get to do the 12 marks question.
(-.-)
i jus write like 4 to 5 lines?
TRAGEDY!
hais.

Spent all the time writing the ireland thiing
(which i din study -used my memories to write- at all.)



What has done, has already been done.

Her Last Words.
Monday, October 01, 2007

[EPIK HIGH - LoveLoveLove] Trans

I’m drunk at midnight,
You coldly hang up the phone to my weary voice at 2am
You don’t know how I feel

Even if it hurts,
I’ll do it again


Have you ever: been in love?

Fallen in love at first sight like in the movies?
Spent the night holding onto your phone?
Bragged to the world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run to someone like crazy?
Secretly stared at someone?
Been crazy?
Pretended that you weren’t looking when you were?

You’ve probably been in love;

Been broke because of an anniversary?
Said sorry even if you were right?
Spent all day writing a love letter?
Cancelled family plans?
Prayed to God for someone’s well-being?
Avoided your friends?
Been lost?
Watched someone walking away?


I loved you like crazy, so why?
I treated you so well, so why?
I gave you everything
(you got me going crazy)

I loved you to death, so why?
I gave you my body and soul

I lost everything
How?


Have you ever: parted with someone?

had your make-up washed away by the rain?
Cut off your long hair?
Held onto a burnt cigarette?
Avoided a situation because we might bump into each other?
Written a letter even if you knew you couldn’t send it?
Called someone when you were really drunk?
"Yeoboseyo?"
Froze up at hello?

You’ve probably parted with someone.

Hated someone as much as you loved them?
Torn up a letter you hadn’t even read?
Deleted a phone number you can’t forget?
Celebrated an anniversary alone?
Set pictures on fires?
Thought that all the break-up songs in the world were about you.

I loved you like crazy,
so why?

I treated you so well,
so why?

I gave you everything,
so why?
(you got me going crazy)

I loved you to death,
so why?

I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything
How?


I cry like a fool,
Get drunk,
Hold onto friends,
Curse that person,
Time passes
And get drunk again
And hold onto the phone

You don’t know how I feel.
The truth is,
you’re the only one that doesn’t know.

Even if it hurts, I do it again
So that we’ll meet again someday..

Her Last Words.

I don know wat happened.

its getting sadder these days..
that friend is like my big brother,
so caring,
so 照顾我。

Mayb that friend
treats other ppl liddat oso.

but i look forward to him as a bro.
i don like him nor i loved him.

hmm...
this kind of feelings is not the same
as wat its like when i am fond of a person.

its more like a very familiar person
or perhaps a family member?

and when i watched him play his guitar,
i loved it...

i was thinking about his sickness...
i wonder how long can he carry on like this..

Tears were in my eyes,
when i listened to him play his guitar.

i cant cry of cos.


its like a dear person left me if he really did lah.

i know the feelings becos my auntie,
died becos of the blood cancer,
u have to worry that whether she will live tml,
and whether she will go hospital tml.
Becos everything is so unexpected,
its very worrying sometimes.
And even that day she pass away,
i kant go and see her.

it really hurts like living in hell.

So i dont want to waste his time.
i tok to him is oso a waste of time.
he could spend time wif his dearest person
then me.

i kant do anything.
but jus prayed of his sickness to recover of cos.
but hes like owaes say that he is going to die,
going to die so why care?

i din said anything.
i really want him to treasure his life.
and when he said he vomit blood is like omg.

he still take it as if theres nothing.
i know he kant do anything to it.
but hes sort of like,
cursing himself?

untill the day he goes,
everything will be like a dream.
will it be over?
when will it be over?
can he continue to not die?

"i want to play u song on the piano if i ever could....
so that i could nvr regret."

Her Last Words.

`I know now,
somethings is dont know the better.


`its really saddening that u see someone u know really sick,
but u jus kant do anything.
and that is like, omg.
u have to wait for time to fly like dunno wat
when u CANT DO ANYTHING TO HELP.



`that is like, u feel that u are so useless
and thou that someone dun want u to do anything,
and the more u feel guilty as a friend.
the feeling of useless,
when u kant do anything, is really really really really bad.


`he/she is ur friend,
but the feeling is like,
u stand there and watch him/her suffer like shit lah.

me, myself feel sooooo damn bad.


`and all I have to do is pray?! omg lah.

`i feel so shit now.

`but now at least i know,
i can treat that friend better.

` when that friend told me,
i was like thinking,
" ARE YOU KIDDING?"
till now,
i still kant believe it.

`i was wondering,
is that friend lying?
izzit true?
not saying that he/she was a liar,
but that person infront of u is so normal,
but now tells u that,
"i m sick".omg. its really unbelievable.

` and its NEVER FUNNY.

`now i truly noe y my ppl say dun waste ur life time,
or jus rather dun waste any little part of ur life.
even a second or two.

`i noe its a bit drama,
but,
i jus wrote down wat i felt these days.



`Nowadays, way too much things happen.
I hope i can cope thru my exams >< `pls get well my friend. =)