Her Last Words.
Monday, October 01, 2007

I don know wat happened.

its getting sadder these days..
that friend is like my big brother,
so caring,
so 照顾我。

Mayb that friend
treats other ppl liddat oso.

but i look forward to him as a bro.
i don like him nor i loved him.

hmm...
this kind of feelings is not the same
as wat its like when i am fond of a person.

its more like a very familiar person
or perhaps a family member?

and when i watched him play his guitar,
i loved it...

i was thinking about his sickness...
i wonder how long can he carry on like this..

Tears were in my eyes,
when i listened to him play his guitar.

i cant cry of cos.


its like a dear person left me if he really did lah.

i know the feelings becos my auntie,
died becos of the blood cancer,
u have to worry that whether she will live tml,
and whether she will go hospital tml.
Becos everything is so unexpected,
its very worrying sometimes.
And even that day she pass away,
i kant go and see her.

it really hurts like living in hell.

So i dont want to waste his time.
i tok to him is oso a waste of time.
he could spend time wif his dearest person
then me.

i kant do anything.
but jus prayed of his sickness to recover of cos.
but hes like owaes say that he is going to die,
going to die so why care?

i din said anything.
i really want him to treasure his life.
and when he said he vomit blood is like omg.

he still take it as if theres nothing.
i know he kant do anything to it.
but hes sort of like,
cursing himself?

untill the day he goes,
everything will be like a dream.
will it be over?
when will it be over?
can he continue to not die?

"i want to play u song on the piano if i ever could....
so that i could nvr regret."