Her Last Words.
Friday, October 12, 2007

`12 oct 07 (II)




`Ahhh~~~....
`Sleeping so soundly de....
`den SHE WOKE ME UP!!! GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRrr......
`Damn fed up lahs...
`she phoned me, den i "shocked(woke)" up from my sleep!
`my soul not even back yet lahs....
`now i noe wats, "dun wake me up lah.."
`idiotic lah.
`den i kant sleep le.
`after that, i feel theres something inside me that wants to comeout.
`haha. mayb the soul haven come back is liddat de.
`lol. now oso feel like sleeping ah... allllll thanks to her.

`haha. now missing him alot.
`wait, i know it SOUNDS pervertic.
`lol. but i dont know leh.
`this is the 1st time i like him "unconditionally"?
`i know this word is..... asshole...
`but i dont know... i dont mind if he is proud, or... shy.. or anything.
`i jus like that way he is.
`not like other i think.. complaining about this and that.
`haha. ppl say crush is liddat de -
the uncertainty,
the unsecureness,
the sadnesss,
sometimes sweet,
and everything is like a dream.
`haha. i dont need him,
or i dont need him to love me or wat.
`i dont care if he has another
person that he crushes on..
`IF he has a girlfriend,
than i will choose another path of cos. HAHA.
`but i jus hope that i could know him more and jus care for him sometimes.
`and if his sad, i would like to smile to him and say,"hey, cheer up okay? "
`and to understand how he feels and jus be his friend.
`haha thats wat i jus hoped if he ever speak up yea?
`*laughs* i know its silly yea?
`i was wondering everytime, is he shy to talk to us or wat?
`HAHA. XD we din even talk?! why u like him?!
`ppl owaes ask me this. i dont care/dont know.
`He is jus someone special to me. =)
`seeing his smile, makes me smile ALOT. lol!!
`hes like a sunshine to me. his smile, haha.. so shiny. like sunshine liddat.

`but i want to know is that, the meaning behind the smile.
`izzit really shiny? or its just fake?
in other words,
i just wanna feel how he feels and
know HOw he feels.